A long time coming…

This blog has been a brainchild in the womb of my consciousness for far too long… and recently I found myself having so much more to say than what can be heard via a facebook status.  So: here we are.

I intend for it to be a political blog with a focus on intersectional feminism and social justice issues… written from the perspective of a mixed race woman living in a racialized America.  Any mixed race person in this nation understands the burden that is implied by your very identity.  Given this, I have always struggled with how to engage with race issues, politics, and issues of social justice on the whole.

I was raised in a blended family with cultures rooted in my black, white, Native American, and South American ancestry.  I spent my childhood finding a space for each of these identities and attempting to blend them into something that made sense not only for me, but for the masses that so desperately needed to categorize me.  Please understand: I have since given up on this.  I define myself for no one but myself. And that is a non-negotiable gift earned through years of trial and error… only to realize that, no matter what, people will think what they will.

Finding my voice through all of this was not at all easy.  I never knew where it (or I) belonged… and so, I often felt afraid.  Being multiracial, especially because I don’t look it, has been one of the greatest challenges of my life. I am expected to choose a side, to define myself as one or another, and to remain loyal to that choice exclusively. Defending my mixed identity to all sides is something I am still working to overcome… I will always be “too [insert racial stereotype here]”… or “not [insert different racial stereotype here] enough”.

However, I think it is worth stating that I should not have to censor what I know to be the truth. My voice belongs.  It doesn’t necessarily need to fall on either side of the fence to be valid.  It is valid inherently… because it is a part of me.  And I have given myself the additional gift, in my adulthood, to feel validated in every aspect and color of my identity… regardless of who chooses to accept it (or not).

So if you are here and you are reading this, understand that this blog will consist of the musings of an off-white girl… who is ready to face the world and spread her truth regardless of consquence.  No subject will be off-limits… and there will be no sparing of feelings. Alice Walker said, “no one is your friend who demands your silence or denies your right to grow.” And I intend to be loud and brave and to grow each day.  And I hope to take some of you with me.

 

7 thoughts on “A long time coming…

  1. Without going too far into my own story, of a mixed race woman adopted by an all-white family and living in an all white community, to say I was lost, felt alone and confused would be an understatement. But when I went off to college I met this loud, confident, funny, goofy young, mixed race woman, who had aspects of herself that resembled me, but some that I had only dreamed about. She seemed so completely comfortable no matter who she was with, what color, what race, what gender. She tried to “school” me but I was a slow learner. This woman I speak of is your aunt, Janice. You probably don’t remember me but I was very close with your mom and your aunt, back when we were young 😅. You are so right when you speak of the gift you gave yourself. To intrinsically know you have worth no matter what color, race etc. just simply because you are you. I said I was a slow learner and it probably took another ten years in addition to the six your aunt spent with me to learn the lessons you are truly blessed with. I am so excited to go on this journey with you to hear our parallels and commonalities but also our differences and uniqueness. You go girl and give your mom a big hug for me. And Janice too when you see her! ❤️

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